More Than

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Here I stand
in the recesses of self-worth,
quantifying the number of deaths it took
to reach this birth.
Hello,
my name is This Hurts,
and I’m a recovering Lover of Less Than.
Always been a fan of mysterious man,
maybe because father was a late bloomer.
From the rumor mill to the toxic pill,
to the “something about his eyes
makes my breath stand still”…
Whatever “it” has been to draw me
beneath his will – was ever just enough.
Just enough to
strip these layers to the buff.
Hidden worlds within my bosom
ran amuck, starved for a taste of love.
Wading trenches drenched in mud,
losing ground every time…
Grasping hope to rise above,
falling deeper down the line…
Never a blind eye, just
a heart asking why, making room
for shifting skies.
But clouds give shade, then
regurgitate rain over fresh tears,
drowning optimism in its own fears.
No part compensates for the whole;
foolishness plucks the single yellow rose,
expecting the thorns not to
bleed their nature.
This nomenclature of “half-full”
runs its course and leaves one empty.
I’ve spent years in recovery;
the first step, that is.
Perched in this corner,
nothing more’s required; if only,
love would just retire.
I could free my soul to play, but
Vice’s reach is a pinch away and
I must survive its touch.
Lovers of Less Than lose too much,
so I will stay behind these
cautious eyes and pray
I somehow recognize
when More Than comes my way.

In response to Dungeon Prompt, “I Am A Recovering (fill in the blank)” http://theseekersdungeon.com/2015/04/09/dungeon-prompts-i-am-a-recovering-fill-in-the-blank/.

162 thoughts on “More Than”

  7. Never settle for less.. such a beautiful post. Very well written! I created a new blog last month called Real Life Natural Wife. I really enjoyed your blog. I hope you’ll come check it out and leave me a comment with your thoughts! Congrats on being freshly pressed! Have a great day!

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  18. Exceptional. Loved your poetry although i am not into poetry but I know Poetry can be a person’s best friend if he falls and grows for it. Keep up the good work mam. 🙂

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  39. Thank you! Your words are potent medicine as we all search for ways to fill our needs and desires without compromising our integrity with ourselves. Much respect for your sharing!

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  48. This really spoke to me – having both settled for Less Than and rearranged myself to do so. The “something about his eyes” was especially powerful here too. Beautifully written and painfully honest.

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    • Awesome! Thanks!!! Usually the first 3/4 flows easy, but I have to play with the end to get the right feel/impact. Or the end comes to me & I need to tweak the lead in. I make a few word changes when I transfer from pad to post & recite aloud for rhythm. 🙂 It’s actually an easier process responding to your prompts than my own notions.

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